As you all know, I've sort of ingrained myself with the members of a local BDSM group called T.I.E.D. Last night one of the submissives for the Domme I've been primarily dealing with announced that as of Friday night, she had been "released". What this means is that she'll no longer serve her Mistress.
Now as a black woman, seeing that she wouldn't be serving anyone again and she had been released should have relieved me. Instead I felt differently for her. I've seen how this woman interacts with her Mistress and the other submissive, a male, in the house. I know that serving makes her extremely happy. So now I have to wonder if her leaving will put a hole in her that will never get filled. I also wonder what made her decide to break from her Domme in the first place. But ultimately I'm afraid for her and I don't know why. I just feel like with her Domme she was safe and protected. She didn't have to make excuses for her lifestyle or what she liked and wanted. Could she possibly get that type of love, protection and freedom outside of that structure?
I'm sure she'll be okay. I'm sure it's just my mind working overtime. But I do worry, which means that I care. If you're reading this, take care lilone. Hope everything turns out all right for you.