Monday, November 07, 2005

How should I feel?

As you all know, I've sort of ingrained myself with the members of a local BDSM group called T.I.E.D. Last night one of the submissives for the Domme I've been primarily dealing with announced that as of Friday night, she had been "released". What this means is that she'll no longer serve her Mistress.

Now as a black woman, seeing that she wouldn't be serving anyone again and she had been released should have relieved me. Instead I felt differently for her. I've seen how this woman interacts with her Mistress and the other submissive, a male, in the house. I know that serving makes her extremely happy. So now I have to wonder if her leaving will put a hole in her that will never get filled. I also wonder what made her decide to break from her Domme in the first place. But ultimately I'm afraid for her and I don't know why. I just feel like with her Domme she was safe and protected. She didn't have to make excuses for her lifestyle or what she liked and wanted. Could she possibly get that type of love, protection and freedom outside of that structure?

I'm sure she'll be okay. I'm sure it's just my mind working overtime. But I do worry, which means that I care. If you're reading this, take care lilone. Hope everything turns out all right for you.

BridgeT

7 comments:

Karen Scott said...

I don't really understand the whole Dom/sub relationship, to me it kind of goes against everything I believe in. Oh well, to each his own.

BTW, I just read Public Domain, and I really liked it.

Your Fascination Street stories are going to be a sure hit, did you not consider Loose ID, EC, Triskelion or Liquid Silver books rather than publishing at Venus?

Karen Scott said...

OK, scratch Liquid Silver, I see you already have a contrcat with them, lol

Unknown said...

Hi Karen,

So glad you liked "Public Domain". And from your mouth to the readers' ears! I sure hope FASCINATION STREET is a hit. When I submitted the story, I considered publishers that accepted straight erotica. FASCINATION STREET has 4 established couples in loving relationships so it's not a traditional romance. However, I view it as a romance because a couple falls in love with 3 other couples. Unusual but it works for them. I knew EC and Triskelion didn't have erotica lines. I hadn't checked into Loose ID. And yes, I already am contracted with Liquid Silver Books for another full-length manuscript already.

Amie Stuart said...

I just wrote my first dom/sub story adn I totally LOVED IT. It was a blast!

Dom/sub relationships are fascinating at the least, from a human nature standpoint and I think in part because they DO go against what many of us are either raised into or trying to get awsay from--did that make sense?

I once asked a woman (who's dom worked with her husband) why and she said because she has to maintain so much control in her day to day life that being dominated sexually allowed her to give up control to someone else. There's a certain freedom in NOT making decissions that I can see the appeal of.

Unknown said...

I have heard of that theory too, Celia. And I'm also intrigued by the lifestyle. As a matter of fact, I have 2 couples in another upcoming work called FASCINATION STREET who are into that lifestyle. I started a forum for that book and I managed to get a real life Domme/sub couple in my forum to talk about the lifestyle and answer questions. You should really sign up for my forum and read some of the posts. I'm amazed at the lifestyle and what really goes on.

http://www.bbfunplus.com/index.php?mforum=fascinationstre

BridgeT

Amie Stuart said...

Bridget I'll definitely check it out--I remember the promo you did for Fascination Street and I love the street signs!

Unknown said...

Didn't Frauke do a great job? The cover for Fascination Street is the only time I have ever written a book and could clearly see the cover in my head. I knew that the cover I have, with one tiny exception, was what I wanted. I'm very happy with it.

BridgeT